Favourite quote

What counts in life is not the mere fact that we have lived.
It is what difference we have made to the lives of others that will determine the significance of the life we lead.
- Nelson Mandela

Sunday, October 22, 2017


Purge is a hated word in cross dressing circles.
Basically we throw out all our female stuff (clothes, breast forms, wigs, shoes).
Normally when we feel guilty that there is something wrong with us (there isn't), or pressured by family, or how I feel currently, which is happier as a male.
I've been there once or twice before, but know that with stress or time or whatever the hell triggers these personality switches, I will be needing my girl stuff again (the golden rule is we are stuck with this condition forever, so never throw away your girl stuff).

I made a commitment to have a girls brunch, so this morning I put my girl stuff on and waited and waited. It was about 15 minutes latter, while having a morning coffee that I was relaxed enough and felt like I was correctly dressed.
Before the manly cowboy time on the farm a few weeks ago, I would have woken as a female or if not, I could have switched personalities in milliseconds.


I would like to thank my wife for the loan of her skirt as my legs are too hairy to wear my shorter skirts and she has requested that they stay hairy - as if.

After coffee I visited KMart and tried on a few outfits, fell in love with this top but since I had already this weekend spent $150 on plumbing pipes and fittings (this time to bypass an underground leak). I decided not to spend my money just yet.

Eventually it was time to meet up with my girlfriend Josie, for brunch.
The manager did ask why we were away for so long as we used to be regulars, but sometimes real life gets in the way of fun outings.



Anonymous said...

Great blog, I suppress my feminine side but it haunts me. When I start to get nightmares about being discovered I also purge and then regret it afterwards. I find it very hard to find things to wear. Do you know of any places in Auckland that sell plus size clothes, new or second hand that are friendly? I am very worried of being turned away. I admire your courage.

Rachel said...

I often find myself in City Chic or the other plus size shop next door at Manukau shopping center. I love their style, very classy. The trick to finding a "friendly" shop is to be friendly and polite. The girls in these shops are normally very friendly and quite mature about our situation.

Anonymous said...

Thanks, I will go and check them out. I will probably just end up having an anxiety attack and come home empty handed, but I appreciate the advice. Your adventures and writings are inspirational.

Rachel said...

If your in Auckland, I'll be happy to help you shop, just email if possible